*~Somewhere between the procrastination...and the homework...and the incessany forwards...and the friendships...and the calls to each other complaining about crushes...somewhere between the phone calls to old friends...and the "I miss you's" the "I love you's"...and the "What we doing tonight's"...and somewhere between all of the changing and growing...somewhere between the classes...and the skipping classes...and the studying for tests...and the pretending to study for tests...and the downright not studying for tests...........I FORGOT..........I forgot what school is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry....I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.....and pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart......I forgot that you cant just live in the past in fear of the future.....I forgot that you cant control falling in love...and you cant make yourself fall in love.....I learned that I CAN love....I learned that it's ok to mess up..and it's ok to ask for help...and it's ok to feel like crap....I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day....I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about school isn't the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups...it's the friendships...which means taking chances.....I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things we need to talk about most...I learned that letters from friends are the most important things. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends.......both old and new.......are the most important people to me in the world.....AND with out them.....I wouldn't be who I am today...~*

I always thought that guys made better friends than girls. They are never so bitchy or full of drama and they are so much more laid back. But for some god damn reason, whenever I find myself a good guy best friend, I end up falling for them. But I realized there's something special about it...whenever I like a guy I'm not good friends with, it's no problem to get over him, but when I like someone who's my good friend...the shit never goes away. To this day, I still love them...:-(